The Cerclage Is Coming Out So There Goes The Safety Net

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In a few hours my girlfriend and I will arrive at the Ottawa General Hospital so she can undergo a procedure to have the cerclage removed.

The cerclage is used when women have an “incompetent cervix” — which, basically, means the cervix is incapable of holding the foetus inside. It’s a stitch around the cervix. It can be very painful, and for a lot of reasons it has been very painful for my girlfriend.

So, because she’s well into the thirty-fourth week of the pregnancy, the doctor decided it would be okay to take it out and see what happens.

It’s a surgical procedure, so there are risks. Her cervix is flat, with the cerclage is really the only thing holding the kid inside. His head is also just too big to slide through the cervix, so the genetics of the gigantic Scottish head are on his side. The baby is also extremely low, and the sac is resting against the cerclage. So any missteps means the water breaks and we have a delivery.

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Things That Have Nothing To Do With My Girlfriend Being Pregnant And A Cooler Update

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It didn’t take long during the month my girlfriend was in the Ottawa General Hospital before I found out the cheapest lunch available in the cafeteria is a small bowl of soup, a carton of milk, a large handful of cracker packages, and as many jam packets as you can stuff into your pocket.

Total cost was three dollars. After several weeks, and many lunches, I found out the jam packets actually cost a quarter each, so this only works if you’re willing to steal food.

So a week ago, on Monday, I was sitting in the cafeteria, reading the Ottawa Citizen while eating a very hot bowl of cream of vegetable soup, when I accidentally inhaled a piece of cauliflower off my spoon. I definitely felt it hit my lung.

For the rest of the day, and all of the next, I kept thinking of the man who inhaled an inch-long piece of a plastic spoon while eating at a Wendy’s. He went two years with it jammed in his lung, never knowing why he was constantly fatigued, and suffering through prolonged coughing fits and recurring pneumonia.

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No Post Day | First Tune

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When we escaped from my father, we moved into a small two-bedroom apartment over a gas station. My memory on this is a little sketchy, but one of the things we ended up with was a cabinet record player: it was about six-feet long, the top tilted upwards, and inside was the record player.

And we did have records. I never really give her credit for this, but my mom does have good taste in music. Back in 1980, in our little apartment, she had “Rumours” by Fleetwood Mac, a Joan Armatrading album, and a Steely Dan. And one of the albums she owned was “Band On The Run” by ‘Paul McCartney & Wings’.

Which I discovered when I was nine, and I’d play it when I got home from school. I can remember playing the title track over and over and over again. I don’t think, for the first year I listened to the album, I ever got past “Jet”, the second track.

There were a lot of reasons why I fell in love with the song. It’s a great song, first, but it feels like three songs in one… from that great opening riff to the muscular guitar starting the second stanza, then the chorus changes the song completely again with the orchestra and acoustic guitar.

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H1N1 Policy On The Maternity Ward Of The Ottawa General Hospital Sucks

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My very pregnant girlfriend has the flu. Late Tuesday night she had a fever of over 101F long enough the nurses, dressed in long, yellow, disposable plastic jackets and wearing face-shields, moved her from her “home care” room to a single room where they’ve quarantined her.

I wasn’t there Wednesday, because I couldn’t find a ride to Ottawa. When I was with her on Monday she complained of back pain and a general feeling of discomfort. Both of which are common problems but, after dinner as I was leaving, she did tell me it was bad enough she would ask for a shot of pain reliever. Which was new.

My girlfriend hates needles. I’d say it’s a borderline phobia. So for her to ask for one would take something out of the ordinary. She has also been exceptionally careful, for the sake of the pregnancy, to not take anything remotely or potentially harmful into her body. I found out in August she hadn’t even been taking Tylenol because she thought it might harm the kid. I had to get a doctor to explain to her about managing her pain with over the counter pain killers.

The shot she was asking for on Monday night is safe for pregnant women, they just don’t like giving it out for every ache and pain.

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