Category Archives: Family

The Original Sin Of Abusive Behaviour Is When You Can’t Accept You’re The Abuser

“Das alte nicht mehr, das neue noch nicht. Ein ende gibt es nicht, alles hat bereits begonnen… the old is no more, the new is not yet. There is no end, everything has already begun.” …a friend. My ‘soon-to-be-ex-wife’ (STBEW) … Continue reading →

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My Little Family Is Still Being Abused Just Like I Predicted We Would

I’m not sure what emotions I should be feeling… but right now it’s a mix of very real anger, exhaustion, deep frustration, and a deep, deep desire to just walk away from everything and just breakdown. Nineteen months ago I … Continue reading →

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Finally Getting Divorced From The Person Who Abused Me And My Kids So She’s Had Me Charged With Assault

In November of 2024 I started filing for divorce against my ‘soon to be ex-wife’ (STBEW) — we’ve been separated since 2015, after our local chapter of Children’s Aid Services (CAS) threatened to put my children — then 5-years old, … Continue reading →

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My Biological Father Has Died… There Are No More Chances

“When I was a child my father believed he was a great man who was in the middle of a great revolution, and things get sacrificed during revolutions. Like family. Or maybe — as he tells the story now — … Continue reading →

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Conversations With My Psychiatrist | Welcome To The Sh*t Show Part One: Andrew Is Homeless

Andrew is threatening to kill himself. I haven’t written a lot about Andrew here. His mother and I started dating when he was four. We got married when he was seven. We separated when he was ten. It was very, … Continue reading →

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Another Conversation With My Psychotherapist… Now With Less Mom Talk

The overarching theme for my past year in psychotherapy was my relationship with my mother… which seems not a little cliché, but it was something that needed to happen. We only discussed my mother for a few minutes this time. … Continue reading →

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