Little Victor Sunday Update February 21, 2010

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Thankfully my son spent most of Sunday night with his mother, so he didn’t see Canada lose to the US in their last game of the preliminary round at the Olympics. I don’t think a two-month old needs to be subjected to that much negative energy.

Victor and I did watch the early game on Sunday, in which Russia beat the Czech Republic 5-3, but only because his mommy had to run some errands for a few hours. Otherwise I probably would have slept most of the day… I’ve had a major toothache since Saturday night.

It’s my last large molar on the lower left side. It was supposed to be pulled over a year ago, but the infection went away and — as they were freezing my face — I decided to keep it. So far the Advil and OraGel are keeping the edge off, but I basically spent all of Sunday waiting for the time when I could take the next Advil.

It really is the last one. If it gets pulled I’ll have to get a partial denture.

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Jenny McCarthy Is Not Evil But She Could Be Responsible For Your Kid Dying

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“As many as 1 out of every 20 children with measles gets pneumonia, and about 1 child in every 1,000 who get measles will develop encephalitis. (Which can lead to convulsions, and can leave the child deaf or mentally retarded.) Two out of every 1,000 children who get measles will die from it. Measles also can make a pregnant woman have a miscarriage…”
Mayo Foundation for Medical Education and Research

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“Complications from mumps infection can include meningitis (inflammation of the brain and spinal cord), orchitis (swelling of the testicles), oophoritis (swelling of the ovaries), pancreatitits, or hearing loss. Infection in women in the first trimester of pregnancy can result in spontaneous abortion.”
Ontario Ministry of Health

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“In 80% of cases where a pregnant woman has rubella in the first 5 months of pregnancy, the fetus will get rubella before it is born… the baby may be blind, deaf or have heart damage… 10% of babies born with rubella will die during the first 12 months of life. There is no treatment for rubella in babies.”
Canadian Paediatric Society

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“Data released last February for England and Wales showed a rise in measles cases of more than 70 percent in 2008 from the previous year, mostly due to unvaccinated children.”
“Medical journal retracts autism paper 12 years on”, Reuters; Feb 2, 2010

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Sometimes it can take decades for what people consider to be a truth to be exposed as an absurdity.

Unfortunately, during those years, the absurdity can be devastating to large groups of people, and even deadly.

In 1998 a research paper was published in the prestigious Lancet medical journal, written by a previously unknown American doctor while working at the Royal Free Hospital in Britain, as “an Honorary Consultant in Experimental Gastroenterology”.

Dr. Andrew Wakefield’s study suggested there was a causal connection between vaccinations for measles, mumps and rubella (MMR vaccines) to autism and bowel diseases in children. The conclusions of his study were based on a minuscule sample population of twelve children. The long term results of his study could be the deaths of hundreds of children.

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Friday Conversations With My Psychiatrist | February 12, 2010

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Psychiatrist Day

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My recovery has reached a strange place… I did spend most of last year depressed, but that was mostly due to the panic and lack of sleep stemming from my girlfriend’s high-risk pregnancy. But I haven’t had a bipolar episode of mania or depression in over a year.

Which is starting to create a dilemma.

During the pregnancy I had no time to really consider where I was in my recovery, because I never really felt recovered or recovering.

But over the past few weeks I’ve been progressively more concerned about what happens when I sit down with my social worker, and he asks me how I’ve been. Or, what happens when my psychiatrist asks me something like “why don’t you get a job teaching writing?”.

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Little Victor Sunday Update February 14, 2010

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There were two milestones in my sons life this week… he turned two months old, and he now weighs in at over ten pounds.

Not bad for a preemie. Victor was born a month early, and weighed 6lb 9oz. He was nineteen inches long at birth, I’m not sure how ‘tall’ he is now, but my girlfriend — who also has a four-year old son — seems impressed.

Victor also spent the week staring at everything. He’s definitely aware of his surroundings, even from a few feet away. I caught him staring at his hand a few days ago. Yesterday, while my girlfriend was feeding him, he couldn’t stop staring at me… even when I got up and started walking away.

He’s still using his tongue as an exploration tool. Sometimes he’s like a little lizard, tasting the air, or his lips, or his jumper, searching for clues to his surroundings. He doesn’t know how to use the rotation of his head to help him see things, yet. So, if I touch his ear, his eyes swivel all the way to the edges of his cheeks, and he gets a look of deep curiosity on his face.

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Little Victor Sunday Update

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Little Victor had a difficult week. First he had to have his circumcision redone because a little piece got left from the first time. A sliver of himself got tucked back under the foreskin and was irritating him in ways I hope never to experience.

The doctor, in order to get the painkiller to work faster, slipped him some sugar water. Which made his little insides blow up with gas, so for the next two days he was a natural gas well. And, since that kind of thing is still very new to him, he cried with each eruption. Sugar water also encourages babies to poo… which causes even more tears.

Then, to top off his week, he got constipated for almost two days. We were about to administer a little more sugar water, or something, when he finally unloaded tonight (Sunday). He filled his diaper, then he almost filled his jumper. There was baby crap — which at this point looks a lot like normal human crap — everywhere. He was covered from his nipples to his knees. It looked like a large animal dumped on him.

Afterwards he was all floppy and had this eyes-half-closed look like he was thinking “ohmygodIamsofreakinghighrightnow”.

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Happy Birthday To Me

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There’s about ninety minutes left in my birthday. I turned forty today.

Numbers have never been important to me, I’ve never had that mystical moment where a birthday turned me into someone else. I don’t know if those really happen. From what I’ve seen in popular culture, and experienced with friends and family, there are ages which are supposed to be more special than others. Like the age when you can drive, then vote, then drink.

But the only ages I ever set deadlines for were 25 and 30, and both of those birthdays I planned to be my last, and if certain criteria hadn’t been met they probably would have been. But when I was 25 I was in College, and when I was 30 I was making $45k/year.

I’ve never had a birthday turn into a reflective moment. I don’t even really celebrate them so much as just acknowledge that it’s happening. I spent today mostly by myself, like most days. I helped my girlfriend with her incredibly out-of-control screaming four-year old around supper time. When he calmed down two hours later he gave me a birthday gift he had picked out for me — a set of Hockey Canada glasses and two photo albums.

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