Category Archives: Bud

Grandfather update plus another death in the family and it’s really hot (Updated 11pm)

My grandfather’s youngest brother died Friday morning. It wasn’t a surprise. My granduncle had a stroke last week, which led to the heart attack on Friday. But he had been… ‘damaged’ for a couple of years. He lost most of … Continue reading

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The time my grandfather taught me how to build a dam

When we were kids, and we were lucky, it would rain. And the parking area of my grandfather’s mountain farm would fill up with streams and rivulets. The farm house was in a small valley, near the top of one … Continue reading

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Days from his ninetieth birthday my grandfather has to start all over again

We’re celebrating my grandfather’s ninetieth birthday this week. I’m having a hard time believing we’ll be doing it for ninety-one next year. There was a fire recently that left him and my grandmother homeless. At the moment the most likely … Continue reading

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How Do I Succeed As A Father If My Examples Always Failed Me Spectacularly

‘You may give them your love but not your thoughts, For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even … Continue reading

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Friday Conversations With My Psychiatrist | Finding My Father In Me And My Grandfather Plans His Funeral

Doctor: “But there’s a big difference between you and your father.” Me: “[long pause] …okay, what’s the difference between me and my father?” Doctor: “You’re not evil.” Discussion between my doctor and myself; June 4, 2010 Appointment: Friday, June 4, … Continue reading

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Friday Conversations With My Psychiatrist | February 26, 2010

By the time I got to my psychiatrist’s office I had been overdosing on Extra Strength Tylenol and ES Advil, as well as taking large doses of penicillin, for five days, and living with the pain of an abscessed tooth … Continue reading

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