Category Archives: Granny

Days from his ninetieth birthday my grandfather has to start all over again

We’re celebrating my grandfather’s ninetieth birthday this week. I’m having a hard time believing we’ll be doing it for ninety-one next year. There was a fire recently that left him and my grandmother homeless. At the moment the most likely … Continue reading

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I spy with my red little eye something that is…

I’ve been crying steadily for almost two weeks now… but only out of one eye, and mostly because it’s infected, but there are times when it feels real. Like I’m actually crying for an emotional reason, and the infection is … Continue reading

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My grandmother apologizes then spends twenty minutes telling me why she’s not sorry

My grandmother has apologized for her behaviour last February. We met at a local restaurant, and she did it right after the waitress took my lunch order. Ten months ago she attacked me for having had a baby with my … Continue reading

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Friday Conversations With My Psychiatrist | Reexamining the causes for exile

This one has been hard to write. Not so much because of the emotions involved, more because just getting the context right is difficult. On August 29 my mother and I had a confrontation regarding my decision to prevent her … Continue reading

Posted in Appointment Day, Bipolar, Bipolar Disease, Bipolar Disorder, Clinical Depression, crazy people with no pants, CSG, Granny, Health, Living With Depression, Living With Manic Depression, Manic Depression, Mental Health, Pregnancy, Psychiatry | Tagged | 10 Comments

The True Nature Of My Being

The signs I’ve slid into a depression should be obvious to me by now. After almost two decades I should at least have a check list by my door, or beside my bed. Dressing in black for days on end … Continue reading

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What if getting rid of my abusive grandmother is just the first step

It has been a month since my mother visited with my son. Her self-imposed exile continues for reasons she won’t share with me, and I doubt I’d understand them if she did. My girlfriend and I have made it very … Continue reading

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